WHAT'S WHAT?

What is inspiration ?

The moment 

You stretch your arms 

Inspired and assured

That you can touch the sky 

That's inspiration!

What's winning?

When the defeat 

After being defeated 

Is proud to be the defeated

That's winning!

What's life?

The sheer reverberation

Of your life 

After you have lived 

That on your death 

They proudly recall your birth

That's life!

What's happiness

That you have sadness your roommate 

In a room of loneliness

In a house of depression

And still your smile never fades away

That's happiness!

JUST NOT ME

She smiled 

Meaning every essence of it

Beside her, was another smile 

She cried out 

Pleading to god 

There was shoulder 

To rest on 

Her eyes shone bright 

And winked at someone 

There was another who winked back 

Breaking the shackles of friendship 

I dared to 

Initiate hopes on her 

But all my hopes 

Drained down my blood 

As soon as I realized 

That smile,

That shoulder, 

Those eyes were not mine 

And hiding the fact from my heart

I backed my tears 

Instead of smile  

That lodged on my shoulders

That lingered upon my eyes.

HAPPIEST OF MY TIMES

The sun has come up the horizon 

And glass no longer shattered 

Now me a person 

Who has emerged once again 

Now without tears in my eyes 

Without a doubt in my heart 

I could barely contain 

My happiness and joy 

As it being the only reason 

Of my every smile 

Of my every dream 

Her eyes sparkled more than the stars 

And sun was no match of her glowing face 

Only reason, being her 

The happiest of my times 

She showed me 

A glimpse of the dream 

Which long I awaited 

She showed at the perfect time 

Only when I needed

And if those were a dream 

I would live in that dream 

And end my life in that very spot 

Because no truth 

Even from the god, 

Would allow my soul to let go of this 

Wonderful incidence   

Beneth that blazing noon

THE FINAL DEZIRE

Someone once told me 

Mistakes willingly committed 

Are either 

Great blunders 

Or 

The greatest achievement

Mine was soaked in both

These moments 

2 minutes and 33 seconds 

Of my life 

My jaw froze as

I gulped down the ice of truth 

It wasn't what I had expected 

But, it was the truth of my life 

Staring right into my eyes 

On the evening of 12 December 

Among all smiles, I stood 

As if I had faded away 

Because that blow was catastrophic

I knew it

The silence within 

Had been armed with a rifle 

But, surprisingly, 

It did not aim my heart 

It took away my life 

Just those few moments 

Of silence 

Silence was shouting only one thing -"NO"

This monosyllabic expression 

Was enough to change 

Me forever 

Life is not about the moments you breathe 

Life is about the moments 

That take away your breath

That drought of silence did take my breath 

Those longest 2 mins and 33 sec did take my breath 

That "NO" did take my breath 

"Some stories are never meant to be 

You just can't ...you can't refrain destiny!!! "

ONE DAY

One day 

Quite sure it will come

I will stare 

Into your eyes 

Drown in the lies 

To find the pearl

Assure myself again 

That one day

I will enjoy 

Your smile 

And fade with it 

Maybe that one day

I will have the guts 

To make sense to you 

And walk away 

With you 

Just one day, ...

That will happen

I believe ...I hope !

CASTLE OF GLASS

It takes a great deal 

To make someone happy and contended

But just a scratch is enough

On the impeccable mirror 

To make its every penny worthless

Just that way

I kept digging deep into a pit

Trying to conceal 

Much of myself

But just when I hit the rocks under

I understood the 

Sands of time has dripped down 

In the hourglass

And the moment had arrived 

To reveal my deepest secrets 

That my heart of glass 

Was broken,

Shattered everyday

Each piece of it

In every possible way 

And my tears found themselves 

None evident, it ever happened 

Picking the pieces in darkness

In the desperate wait 

That there will be a new 

Person to throw the stone on the castle!!

A HEART CRIED, TODAY

I often speak

To that empty silence

And share all my

Thoughts and views

I sunk in 

To just debate with 

The invincible silence always with me

But today

My silence was beckoned by

Someone else 

So brave and bold

Had tears rolling over 

Just as frost on fire 

And as if 

That fire melted melted away

To reveal the deepest agony 

Only when 

A heart cried that day

FOR TOMORROW, I KILLED TODAY

For the sake and greed 

That tomorrow possessed

I broke the promise with today

A great dilemma lie ahead

Between 

Something which meant everything to me 

And 

Everything which meant nothing now

Though one indeed

Good or bad 

Was never the question

Today reminded me 

Of nostalgic moments 

And tomorrow promised me 

Fulfilled dreams

A thought to live in present 

Would murder my future 

And a dream to live my dream 

Would stab TODAY

But give today 

That happiness 

That it forgets the sadness 

Of terminating 

Into the tomorrow

EMOTIONAL ROAD

Negativity engulfed me

On the road 

Of emotional grudges and desires

I die there everyday 

And see others walk past

It seems they are 

Bewitched people

Using magical powers 

To extend a bridge on 

The very trench of emotions

Nothing there 

Ensured me happiness

They all were drained 

As that path of emotion 

Had sucked the last drop 

I fell down everyday 

In the hope of rising 

In the hope that she 

Help me cross over 

And not walk past !!

THE EYES THAT DREAMT

Tired of counting the dreams 

The eyes dreamt every 

Night and day

A place 

Where it was just me

And my friend, happiness

Possessed a uniqueness

With every dream which was 

A step closer to her 

But all that was wept out

Just as the tears flowed by

To realize

Those eyes were not mine 

Not by pity 

But by sacrifice 

I let them obliviate from my memory

And just concealed the 

Secrets of my dreams 

In my heart!!

THE BASKETBALL MATCH

Bereft of the limelight

I strolled towards the arena

The atmosphere added to my tension 

The absence of the great pinched me

Incapably, unexpectedly

Quite immature

I was to stand in his place 

The first match

Was a gift 

Wrapped by unexpected

And revealed victory

It was still a long way

And the next was impossible 

The final day arrived

Hundreds of eyes lingering 

Staring with hope 

It began in good fashion

Time was against us

It leveled the score 

All ready to draw the last blood 

Perhaps not by experience 

But as birth right 

I stood to throw the last

What happened next will be history

But will remain a colossal tribute

To the basketball team

And HARSH!!

WHAT YOU LEAVE BEHIND

The big shots often tell

That seldom

A realization exists

Between the reel life

And the real life

Dreams into reality

Is a long way

Trodden by many

Completed by a few

Some will remember you 

As a name 

Very few will remember you

As a fame 

The reality hides 

Behind the fact 

The number of people 

Feel the essence of your presence 

In your absence!!

  

THE SWINDLER TRUST

I reached a place of uncertainty 

Nine feet above the above the clouds 

Holding onto 

All the branches 

Crushing some on my way 

But still there was someone 

Always there by me 

Probably our trust had brought 

Her here 

That fragile trust 

Was long ago broken 

I could see the reflection 

But the not the real her 

Or 

Maybe someone 

Whispered the poison 

In my ears..

Just drop by drop ... 

TWO FACED HUMAN BEINGS

People change 

Just as seasons 

Only for motives of benefit 

They suffer drastic change

Someone 

With whom greeting were 

A compulsion 

Now looking at each other 

Is a forceful action

Reasons are many 

But life reminded me 

As it it echoed in my ears 

"I am way too short for ALL YOUR GRUDGES"!!

GREAT LIARS

There often exist 

Great liars 

Who not lie others 

But deceive themselves

Who not fool others 

But fool themselves

Once I also fell into the trap 

On that path 

Assured of happiness 

But could not see 

Imagined soothing raindrops ahead 

But could not feel 

At half way 

Near a lake 

When I washed my face 

My reflection could not see me 

As the real me 

Was somewhere left behind 

Deceived on its path!!

WHICH ONE ARE U?

Many people around me 

Masked men 

Masked women  

Laughing and smiling

Really?

Or 

Trying to forget 

Beneath the pyramid of their smile 

In that deep corner 

The tomb of reality 

Is still alive 

Knowing this

People pretend to be

According to their Image 

And not 

Create the image according to them !

MY LIFE

Long ago,

Some years down the lane

I had crucified myself

And my life

Deserted me on the journey

Probably attitude did not allow

Me to turn back

The heartless frame

Walks, runs , thinks

Everything but

Forgot that

living is more important than life

Good were those days

When pleasure walked aside

Good were those days

When laughter played with me

That imprint is

plunged deep onto

sands of my memory

And life somewhere

left behind

But still kept walking

Could only see the destination

But not understand

Why I am being dragged

Till there  

THE WAY HE WANTED IT

From the human eye 

If u see

Another human 

U are the human made by God

If the veil of religion 

Does not cover his face 

And poverty is just 

a part of destiny  

And not desire 

where the wisdom heals 

And not demolishes 

And the human race  

Where it emerges winner

Not by killing others 

But itself standing atop

Then will the world be 

"The Way He Wanted It!!"

SEARCH FOR THE LOST

Eyes not in the 

Desperate search of anyone 

Simply 

Or probably it has 

Lost his own shadow 

Silence whispered to me 

The answer lies within 

Darkness flashed to tell

Let thou be right 

In the gasping thin air 

I could feel my heartbeat 

Not for the best but 

At least good 

I will stay in the dark night   

In your search 

Knowing that you are not there
But believing that 
You are there

HOLIDAYS = BORING DAYS

The number of missed shots 

Kept on increasing 

The count of holes on the dartboard

Became countless 

The utter silence 

Completely surrounded me 

And every moment 

Its noise grew louder 

Only the clock 

Ticked away into the silence

As these boring days 

Gently passed by... .

STILL AWAITS

Some misconception 

Still awaits 

Some already transferred

Some curious on their way 

But it was me who did it 

And I regret 

That the truth somewhere lay behind 

Deceived on its way 

And still awaits 

IT WILL TAKE ME TIME FOR ME TO BE NORMAL AGAIN

Having achieved much

Is not always a nice feeling

Even behind the clouds

The sun takes time to come out of the trap

But once you are there on top

On the hill of proud feeling

And watch others working down there

Just close your eyes

Enjoy the moment

Feel the breeze

Because the brain stops working

That those down there

Are working to demolish your hill

And one day you will be in tatters

Even that day will be granted to you

When you will murmur to yourself

“Why did not I work when I was…..”

I glanced at my broken face

The pieces of glass still falling

The blood oozing out of my fist

I could not hear my mom shouting

And I understood that it takes time to be normal!!

10:00 ; WAKE UP SIDD

Finally it is over

Not with joy 

But with a heavy heart 

The epic class 9

A part of me 

Still remains 

Unflinchingly stored in 

Those four walls

And the remaining 

unwilling to face tomorrow 

I think I will wake up 

Probably not in time to see the disaster  

But surely on time to face the disaster!    

TASTED DEFEAT?

Am I the last ?

No,

Or probably yes

I have lost!

Lost in the battle with myself

Lost in the war with confidence

My strengths are wounded

My patience lie dead

My capabilities all used

And no strengths remains

To fight back

"Silence is peace"

Is all I said

When the spear of distress

Pierced away my last hope

I am devastated

Only the crushed paper

Could cry for me

STALK AT YOUR MISTAKES

On the deserted lane 

That traveler brisked upon

Lost his name 

And all the fame 

Thrown in vain

Searching his identity

In hope;

He had gone through 

This path someday

Mocked him on his way 

Even the stone that lay

Trying to search 

From the genesis of mistakes 

And knew that 

"Everyday he walked that path 

He found a new house to discover"

STUDENTS LIFE

This reckless life

Talent goes into the gutter

Imagination fly away

No,

It is thrown away

Student's life

It is like a maze

Opening at every end

But never knowing what

Awaits behind the door

Some keep pushing the wall

Some bang on the ground

While some wait for the others to open

But only a few

Dare to open the door

Which was never locked .

3rd floor apartment window

peeped out

gushing traffic

neon lights

unwanted bottles

priceless persons going penniless

drunken in the smoke

lying around

and hardly someone

soaked into passion

people have forgotten

those people's only

and lonely support is machines

machines did not create us

and we created them

thereafter

the morning milkman

having a grudge on his scooter

getting late for bed

bye

IMMORTAL MEMORIES

Those playgrounds are not of mud

But created out of our footprints

Those benches are not painted

But wet with our hard-work

Dreams echoes in those halls

Our creativity hangs on the walls

The gardener still remembers our mischief

We both could not answer the 3rd question of maths paper

Those corridors still rings up with our laughter

Bell starts our race to ground

And teachers yelling at us

Peon shouting at us

Hosting a crowd of 2000 parents

I forgot my lines

I still recollect

During practice

You laughing on those lines of the script

"Our teachers watch us everywhere"

Finals of football

And I shot the last goal

Against you

All memories flied away with that paper

When you told he is no more

SENTIMENTAL AND MOISTENING

In the temple,

when the eyelashes

cover the eyeballs

retina pictures out god

But in our case

the tension overlaps them

the shine of curiosity is visible

in those small pupils

and the pride of accomplishment

their eyes still can't differentiate between the

rich and poor

can't perceive the amount of money

incapable of winking to hide the truth

cannot manufacture false tears

but ones made

are invaluable

unable to distinguish between the

finest silk suit

or the ragged clothes

it just penetrates deep into the heart

seeking love and care

removing sorrow

they see the world with a low height

still those eyes only give respect

whereas the ones which rules

disrespects many

those eyes do not look here and there for excuses

instead just reveal the truth looking straight

those eyes belong to every small child

I see them many including my sister

WILL YOU BE MY FRIEND?

I am lonely

Walking over the dusty roads

Others gossiping

Their every word

Is dipped into pleasure

Or sunken into sorrow

Wished that even i could have

But i already had

The best friend loneliness

It never ditched me

as they say

It never betrayed me

As they complain

I have learnt

To walk through the lanes of happiness

I have learnt to

Enjoy with myself

I just bow my head

And saw the road has come to an end

And  probably

I cried 

I kicked the  ground in despair

My ears were all numb

There was only wind to erase those tears

The old leaves rustled 

And the sun glared at me

I made my new friends

My friend was with me

ALL THE SKULLS LAUGH

Those skulls laugh 

All of them laughed

They laugh on us

Seeing the competition

Seeing the desperate 

Glaring at the clever 

And spying at the thief behind the gold

Because they know 

And have understood 

We came from dust 

And one day 

Will bite the dust again

Those have realized

When they were living they never lived 

And after life they cannot live

See them 

They all laugh at us!! 

THE PARTNER TILL DESTINY

The stroll of life

In the neon light

My leg displaced a stone

I looked up

In search of the moon

The lamppost boastly said

"Its only my rule in the dark, today!"

My destination was still far away

But the darkness made it quite invisible

I glanced at my shadow

The only friend who supported

At all times

No matter what the situation I was in

This friend of mine accompanied me in this walk

My mind just realised that

I had stamped it at every step

Just to reach my destination!

Do we do the same in our life ?